Connecting...

It seems I´ve been so busy lately, getting our English school year started, our kids well adjusted in school and trying to keep up with the house, that I haven´t had time to think about writing anything in my blog, or trying to figure out what´s going on inside of me. Now that things are settling down somewhat, I´ve suddenly realized that I don´t have many close friends, or kindred spirits. There are very few people that I can open up to, that I feel understand a little about me, and not many people have opened up to me either. Even though I try to keep up on what´s going on in some people´s lives through their blogs, orkut and emails, I wonder, am I really connecting to them?

I just heard a conversation between two ladies in the drug store this afternoon that went something like this:

- Hi, how´s it going?
- Oh, fine, how is your mom?
- She´s doing just fine! And how are your kids?
- They´re ok...one of them was sick last week but is fine now. And yours?
- They´re ok too. See you!

It made me wonder if in their minds they felt they´d had a connection. To me it seemed more like a ready-made speech than a real glimpse of what´s going on with them. And so many of my conversations have been this way lately. I haven´t taken the time to really know how other people are doing, and haven´t felt that they´re interested in me either.

To me connecting with someone implies give and take. It implies a flow of thoughts, of interests, of hearts. By connecting we are plugging into someone else´s world, feeling a little of what it is to be that someone.

You know what? I am dis-connected. My own world has consumed me too much lately and I´ve barely had room for others. This is one plan in the making...connecting...there we go...I hear the signal now...